To go in the dark with a light is to know the light.
To know the dark, go dark.Go without sight,
and find that the dark, too,blooms and sings,
and is traveled by dark feet and dark wings.
Wendell Berry
I’ve been sinking into the darkness this December, really relishing in the long nights that mark the approach of solstice. At this time of year, the earth tilts so that the northern hemisphere is the furthest it can be from the sun, making the nights long, and they will get longer until the winter solstice, which is the longest night of the year. After the solstice the earth tilts back, nights get shorter and the days get longer, until the summer solstice, the longest day of the year. Throughout time the winter solstice has been celebrated and ritualized for the “return of light,” with hope, warmth and comfort in its wake.
Although, this post is about the dark. It is about the time before the light returns. It is the state we are in, when the light comes; but it’s not there yet. It’s dark.
My obsession, nay intention, about sinking into darkness is in direct response to an internal longing for restfulness and reflectiveness that I get at this time of year...It’s also a counter move against the constant positive spin our culture puts on everything. As Wendell Berry said in the poem above, to know the dark, go dark. I’m going dark.
Although, this post is about the dark. It is about the time before the light returns. It is the state we are in, when the light comes; but it’s not there yet. It’s dark.
My obsession, nay intention, about sinking into darkness is in direct response to an internal longing for restfulness and reflectiveness that I get at this time of year...It’s also a counter move against the constant positive spin our culture puts on everything. As Wendell Berry said in the poem above, to know the dark, go dark. I’m going dark.
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But first, some context:
We live in a “lights-on” and “light up” culture. There is a bias towards positivity, knowledge, consciousness, and luminosity. I see this everywhere: in modern yoga and mindfulness culture, in well-meaning (but misinformed) grief supporters, and in self-care psychology. We attach to “light” things as worthy of our focus and praise, and banish “dark” things from our lives (or try to, anyway). We have lit bulbs in our homes and lit lamps in the streets and parks. We have lit phones, lit computers, lit TVs, lit everythings...we literally push the dark out of our lives. (Reading about dark sky preserves is fascinating ) Scientifically, we organize knowledge, find explanations and test predictions. We analyze data, and determine statistics. We shine-our-light on problems we can solve, seek out observable physical evidence, and rest in certainty. |
What about the mysterious? What about that which cannot be measured or quantified? We are forgetting that we are human beings, not a slew of numbers and statistics. We are losing our ability to be in relationship with the unknown, even though we spend most of our lives in this space.
Even within the modern culture of yoga, there is a skew towards focusing on positivity, and upward movement of the psyche towards betterment and progress. What happens to your practice when you are sorrowful and there is downward movement in your soul and psyche? That yoga, no longer fits. It’s not sustainable.
Heck, even the word enlightenment gets so much more positive press than endarkenment.
Even within the modern culture of yoga, there is a skew towards focusing on positivity, and upward movement of the psyche towards betterment and progress. What happens to your practice when you are sorrowful and there is downward movement in your soul and psyche? That yoga, no longer fits. It’s not sustainable.
Heck, even the word enlightenment gets so much more positive press than endarkenment.
I first heard of this word, endarkenment, in this 12 minute video by Joan Sutherland called The Radiance of the Dark She says that the universe is made up of 96% dark matter. 96%! That leaves only 4 % light. I found that statistic staggering, in our culture that undeniably values light (literally and metaphorically).
I watched the video a few times and every time I hear something more. It’s become one of my favourites Recently, I jotted down all the words or themes that related to darkness as I watched.I also jotted down word that related to light, for comparison sake.
To explain endarkenment, I thought I’d just share my list with you.
I watched the video a few times and every time I hear something more. It’s become one of my favourites Recently, I jotted down all the words or themes that related to darkness as I watched.I also jotted down word that related to light, for comparison sake.
To explain endarkenment, I thought I’d just share my list with you.
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DARK
96% - dark matter, dark energy Still Silent Warm Intimate Vast Dreaming Mysterious Unfathomable Interstellar space Lie back and rest in the unfathomable sea Deep Not absence of light, but presence of source Fertile Radiance Meditation is forming a relationship with the dark Include as part of awakening Lie back Rest Wondering Surprised Trusting Willingness to participate How am I already in this? Hold things as questions Not knowing Un-naming Un-making Unexpected Stopping Putting down Letting go Invisible Welcome that which as been excluded, or relegated to the margins Ignored Underground Come to know the deep currents, rely on them Cool Moist Dark |
LIGHT
4% Conscious See Feel Hear Enlightenment Luminosity What does the sun make grow? Light on method Abundance of certainty Heart on fire Mind on fire |
Interesting, huh?!
We desperately need to change our relationship to the dark.
Understanding the dark isn’t about looking for, or turning on the light switch, it’s about forming a relationship with the dark itself. Darkness is not a mistake. Part of the human condition is suffering...not to minimize it but to encourage you/me/us/world to understand that we are equipped to benefit from the dark. To find support there. Just like a seed draws on the cool, dark, moist soil to prepare to germinate, our inner darkness can be fertile. It needs to be included as part of our healing.
Some questions for reflection...
How to the words above resonate within you?
What happens for you in the dark?
What is your particular dream?
Does your body experience endarkenment in different ways than your mind?
How can you welcome that which you exclude from your life?
What deep and dark currents can you rely on?
How can you lay back into the mystery and unknowing?
Are you willing to participate in your darkness?
In Darkness,
Sandy
ps. I'd love to hear your thoughts and reflections. Leave a comment below!
We desperately need to change our relationship to the dark.
Understanding the dark isn’t about looking for, or turning on the light switch, it’s about forming a relationship with the dark itself. Darkness is not a mistake. Part of the human condition is suffering...not to minimize it but to encourage you/me/us/world to understand that we are equipped to benefit from the dark. To find support there. Just like a seed draws on the cool, dark, moist soil to prepare to germinate, our inner darkness can be fertile. It needs to be included as part of our healing.
Some questions for reflection...
How to the words above resonate within you?
What happens for you in the dark?
What is your particular dream?
Does your body experience endarkenment in different ways than your mind?
How can you welcome that which you exclude from your life?
What deep and dark currents can you rely on?
How can you lay back into the mystery and unknowing?
Are you willing to participate in your darkness?
In Darkness,
Sandy
ps. I'd love to hear your thoughts and reflections. Leave a comment below!
