How I Hope to Leave A Mark

"A bereaved person's life is like a piece of paper upon which every passerby has the dangerous opportunity to leave a mark." - Alan Wolfelt

This is the quote on the top of the first page of the package we received for the 4 day intensive training I am currently taking in Fort Collins Colorado with Alan Wolfelt and the Center for Loss.  I keep reading it over and over. It is SO (scarily) true. I suppose it's also the reason that I am taking my Grief Studies Certificate with Alan Wolfelt and the Center for Loss; I want to meld what I have learnt in my own heart through my own losses, with fundamental skills that will support, hold, and create space for others to grieve and mourn in their own way and their own time...in other words, I want to leave a positive mark on a bereaved person's grief and mourning experience(s).

It's impossible to attend intensive retreats and trainings like this without attending to, and experiencing my own losses in new ways and at new depths. These weeks away are deep and inspiring. I am amongst a group of 24 heart-ful caregivers with such amazing gifts of compassion and service...I'm honoured to be here. I've been eagerly anticipating this course since the last one I attended in March 2012.

I was reminded last night, in my attempt to get here, that there are things in life we cannot control.  After flight delays, missed connections, and changed routes, I arrived a full 13 hours after I left my house.  I don't think I really arrived mentally and emotionally, until this evening. I think parts of me were in Edmonton, Minneapolis, Phoenix, and  Denver! I recognized this feeling of un-groundedness and cured it this afternoon with a walk amongst the trees, a 30 minute yoga practice, brief meditation and some journalling about my day.  To celebrate arriving fully, I ordered a plate of hot wings and glass of wine from room service. Balance and moderation, right?! 

I hope to blog each day about my time here - reflections, insights, learnings, etc. 

For now, I'll end with saying that I hope I can leave marks upon people's lives that are supportive, encouraging and genuine...I also hope that I can take this time here in Colorado to receive support, and knowledge so I can spread it further and beyond! 

Namaste,
Sandy